2008-06-30 - 11:23 a.m.
My mind is...I'm not sure where but I know it's not on the task at hand. I have Pandora playing to help me concentrate, but it's not working right now. I've gotten 3 calls about the closing so far. E-mails that were sent Friday weren't found, so I had to resend them again. I've added 1.000 minutes to the phone just in case since I've been using it so damned much.
Can't remember if I mentioned that last week when I did the final final walk-through the place was still crammed with furniture. Now I'm being told that a friend of the seller's will be by to select what she wants to purchase and the rest is mine. I can do with it what I want. I'll be keeping it thanks. I'm really hoping the bed and stereo remain. My luck all she'll leave behind is the stuff I don't care about. Either way it's good stuff in excellent condition.
I'm a bit nervous about the coming months. I'm going to be essentially juggling 4 mortgages - 2 on each place. I won't be living high on the hog by any means, I just hope I'm able to keep my head above water! I know it can be done, in fact I've done it before. What really worries me is the house I'm leaving behind. The kids have made such a mess of it. I really do believe I'll end up having to evict them. I see much guilt in my future. I also may end up with house-mates too. I have a feeling that the kids are going to lose the babies if the neighbors stay true to form and call Child Welfare. I'll have to put them up and at least I'll have the room. The other day granddaughter was complaining about a roach in the bathroom (go figure) and her mother's reply was to chill out, you should be used to living with roaches by now. Can you believe it?!!? What kind of parent tells a child that? Once they are evicted, if it comes to that, the locks are changed and operation flip the house gets going. Sonny law's already done some of the demolition for me in the kitchen. I'll have to hire someone to clear the backyard...it hasn't been cut in over a year. I know it will probably take me 18 months or so to get it sale ready and money that I don't really have at my disposal right now. I'll just have to do it a piece at a time. It needs pest extermination for sure. I'll probably start with the outside just because it won't cost as much to do it if I do it myself. Inside, I need to rip up and replace the floors, remove and replace all of the molding that still there, refinish most all of the window sills, patch walls, paint. Dad thinks I should consider renting the property. I tell ya it's certainly tempting. I could probably get $800 - $1000 for it a month and that would cover the mortage plus a little extra. I'll have to think on it and decide when I finally get to that point. I don't see me ever moving back into it. I'm thrilled to be moving out of a subdivision. I don't really care for neighbors that close and am happy to be living alone again...well alone with my sis and her family right next door. Still I'll have the solitude I've craved like a drug for several months now. I'll be able to find me again and finally embrace life rather than just react to it. I was going to go back to school in September to get the teaching certificate. I still think it's worth doing, but I think the timing needs to be better. Sis is right, I should at least take a year off of any serious academic pursuits and then jump back in. I'm thinking of another Master's and a couple of certifications I'd like to have too. But all in good time...I'll need to do at least one of the certifications before anything else. These days the future is muddy...a swirling stream...scylla and charybdis. All decisions seem to be equally wonderful but all are equally dreadful as well...or at least have less than desireable outcomes.
OK, now I know I'm being usless if I'm referencing Homer. I really just need to get this whole moving business behind me and I'm sure I'll be better focused...I'd better be. I have a lot riding on my shoulders these days and I can't afford to drop anything.
